This Thing, PAIN

This Thing, Pain

Walking against the freezing wind

And a dismal smile of a moonlit sky above

A thundering silence of anxieties inside

Teary eyes and crack lips

Don’t you hear my deepest cries?

Beneath the shadows of winter trees

Misty face smelling the frozen earth

I am trapped…environed with sadness

A sensation of loneliness

Like a struggling fitful lamp

Against a blanket of blackness.

Don’t you really hear me?

The loudening shout of an aching heart

Flooded with loneliness

Standing alone

Against an assemblage of twinkling stars

Where are you now?

How soon you forgot the pledge

Don’t you discern my panic worries?

Smiling moon and dazzling stars,

Don’t you hear my bloody scars?

Will it all be over?

This thing they say is Pain…

That I surely don't wish to you too

For this is heavy and is killing.

Don’t you decipher my apprehension?

Against a stream of oblivion.

Why are we apart?

I thought we’ll be together forever

I can’t close my eyes

For I will see nothing but you

Your smile, your eyes…your gentle kisses

Just like a dream

For you are with someone else now.

A lot of pains…a bucket of tears

A ray of light from the moonlit sky

I sit beneath the dead branches

Cold and shaking

Trying to sway myself that you are still here

Waiting for you to call my name again.

8:35 p.m. January 08, 2012

Berumezon 102, Mitaka Shi, Tokyo